Heart on a Sleeve
I wear my heart on my sleeve and I accept the blessings and the curses of doing so. To be honest it sucks sometimes but other times it’s great.
Because I wear my heart on my sleeve it gives people the opportunity to break it a little easier. They play with it as if it doesn’t affect the one it’s connected to. They stab it, bruise it, and mangle it leaving nothing but pain and scars, but what do they care, it’s not their problem to deal with. Doing this over time can cause some people’s heart to grow callus and immune to emotions but that is a choice. In me it has built insecurities and each time it makes the voices of those insecurities louder and louder. Although these voices are extremely loud at times, you can’t let them take control of you. If you are willing to fight then they can’t control you, it’s when you give in and stop fighting that they take you over. No one can make you want to fight and no one can fight for you, it’s up to you.
On the other hand, wearing your heart on your sleeve allows the best friendships to build and form. Not everyone is evil or out to play your heart. Some are here to nurture, love and protect your heart. But you have to give them a chance to do so and the way you do that is to be vulnerable. Some of the people that hurt you before were internally young and immature (no matter how old they are externally) and you can’t always keep them at the immature state in your mind. Allow people to grow up. You at one point were in the same place of immaturity that they were until you yourself grew up. You don’t want to be treated like you’re a child all your life so don’t treat others the same way. Extend mercy and give them a chance. By not letting my past pain determine my future decisions I’ve made wonderful friendships. People can say what they want, but most of the time they’re the same people that are jealous of my life. Jealous of the amount of people who thought I was cute/handsome, my various adventures and vacations, amount of friends and all the things I have or had. They all came or happened because I allowed myself to be vulnerable, lovable, and caring. I’ve made or allowed the best friendships to flourish because of these attributes. All these positive things are what make me keep my heart open and exposed on my sleeve.
Sincerely,
Heart Sleeve
